Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in socksfan's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, April 27th, 2005
1:35 pm	hey so here i am. reading day. having sat in on my final class of my sophmore year just yesterday, its amazing that the year has passed. its rough right now. i dont know how i can help her. all i can do is be here for support. i know its sound simple of me, but i know that things are going to be alright. i know that she just needs to understand where she is in her life right now. i also believe that her unknown feelings as a response to the girl is something that will pass. its something that she has never had to deal with before. she just needs to understand "it," and the thing is figuring out what "it" is. maybe its the fact that this doubt was placed into her mind, that she is so scared. Current Mood: restless (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
2:50 am	tired eyes just here on a late saturday night. not doing much, just here with the boring talk of tv in the background. scott and his girl have separated once again. aiyah. if i have to go through another one of these things one more time, i dont know. its just gahh. i dont know what goes through the two of these ppl's minds. they need to get their things straight. they need to be honest and open with how they feel and it seems that they change whats in there mind every month. all at once, i cant believe that its the 10th and that its only the 10th. the first one is due to the fact that finals and research papers are coming up and starting this week. the second reason is because i still have to wait so long to see my love. i miss her dearly. and i cant wait to see her. :) i cant wait to spend the summer with her. it going to be great to spend all that time with her. and as the title suggests, my eyes are very tired. they seem red. i'm glad that i have some eye drops. i dont wanna stay here and i dont wanna go through all this work of school. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
12:40 pm	hello sighs. just on my lunch break before class. its now becoming the case that distance is taking a larger toll. its creating a strain that makes it difficult to talk. as if nothing can be done. it just keeps on hurting for the both of us. and the fact that she is hurting so and i cant do anything is tearing me apart, that and the way that distance is taking its toll on me. i just want to scream out. i want to leave here. i want to go to her. i want to be there for her. i..just feel that i can't do anything. i dont know what to do. i dont. i just dont have any idea. and when i try to comfort her, i feel that it isnt the right thing i should be doing because its just going to cause more tension. i also feel that when i show her i love her, it makes it harder for us because we realize what we cant have right now. i just...........have to take it. i need to. i need to be strong for me, for her, for us. its not supposed to be easy but is it supposed to hurt this much? i will be there and do everything i can. Current Mood: distressed Current Music: tv commercials (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
10:22 pm	hi hi from Berkeley hi hi. its been a while since i posted when the being known as Crysers intruded upon my last entry. she entered into our room around 3:30 am and came over to hang out. she really needs to stop talking about sex all the time. well i'm here at berkeley. :) just sitting and relaxing with my girlie as she does her hw. break has been quite enjoyable and rather busy. phx was nice and the spring training game was pretty cool. there was this crazy peanut man who could throw peanuts across sections from behind his back. :). san diego had some nice weather and i got a chance to chill w/brian, damien, and alex. today is my second night here and the weather has been quite nice. it has been...quite perfect to be in each others arms. i love this girl. teehee. <3 <3. Current Mood: comfortable Current Music: good charlotte (Comment on this)
Monday, February 28th, 2005
1:51 am	well, its been a while while it may be the weekend after the event, i still have to talk about it. Last weekend, the girl i have been seeing came out to visit. she flew all the way from Oakland to Nashville. it had been about a month since i last saw her and we both could not wait to see each other. she had called me around 2 to say that the plane was delayed, so i had to expect her about 20-30 minutes late. i was sad but i saw it as an opportunity to pick her up somethings that she wanted at the mall. when i left the mall and was on the freeway, she called me to tell me that her plane had landed which was about 10-15 minutes earlier that the website had stated. i really wanted to greet her when she landed so i hurried and parked the car, running to baggage claim. i ran and when i got to the automatic doors she came out looking for me to be parked in the temp stalls. her new haircut made me almost miss her when she had her back towards me, but i kept on staring at her, waiting for her to turn around. she looked at me but didnt recognize me and then finally recognized me because she didnt expect me. she ran to me and i picked her up in my arms. i spun her in my arms like i always do after not seeing her in a while. i missed her and i held her. we were nothing but smiles. to be cont.. Current Mood: content Current Music: Nfl Combine (Comment on this)
Friday, February 11th, 2005
9:18 pm	ho hum so today is friday,whats new? not just another friday but the one before v-day. as a result, this campus is bare. i cant find anybody. but today is also another day closer to the day when i can see my sweetheart, :). nothing special to talk about besides getting set into my new schedule. its been about a week to get adapted to the "new" way and it seems more productive but at the same time, it seems to take more of you. my roomate seems to be doing a lot better with his girlfriend, after their small break-up. working away at school and preparing for the hell that is next week. the anticipation is killing me, i cant wait to see her next friday. i cant believe that by this time next week, she'll bein my arms again. this seems to be the weekend of the exes with about four of my friends having something related to them going on. things are going well and things seem to good at home. i hope that my sister enjoy her retreat. i miss my family and their silly remarks that always make me laugh. te quiero tanto mi amor. Current Mood: but not sad Current Music: hives (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 29th, 2005
4:19 pm	saturday so the birthday surprise came about without a hitch. the surprise look on his face was worth the hassle it took for it to come about, his gaping mouth and tomato-red face. hahaha. the poor kid could not even believe it. he just kept on moving backwards until he hit the wall and even then it seemed like his legs would give out at any second. it's the happiest i've seen him in a good while. :) homework on a saturday is no fun. one would never think that keeping busy would be such a hard thing to do. the days just seem to lag in ending. its not so much classes but the beginning of the next day seems so far away. seeing as my apparent concentration level is low. i should be back on this thing in a matter of hours or so. sighs Current Mood: restless Current Music: Run (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 27th, 2005
11:38 pm	hey so its thursday, days and days(22, actually) from when i the girl that i am seeing gets to come and visit. its only been 10 days since i last saw her and it already seems like forever. the most difficult part is knowing that she is in a situation where she doesnt have many friends to share or confide in at school. i am there for her whenever she needs me but i cannot be there in person. the fault being that i am so far away. i feel that she really needs someone to be with her. i think that she is in a position where she has no one to talk to. i try to be strong for her but it is so difficult when i feel she is hurting. combine that with a surprise birthday celebration that seems to have so many twists and turns and u have a situation where u just want to let out a big: Sigh. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: heater and car horns (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 22nd, 2005
9:28 pm	i dunno so its my first saturday back at school for spring 'mester. nothing too exciting but the the bone-chilling cold of 17 degree weather with wind. but theres nothing like getting to wake up at 2 o'clock to the voice of the girl you love. a voice that wipes away that morning grumpiness and makes u forget that u are just getting up. to be continued later on tonight...... Current Mood: longing Current Music: full house (Comment on this)